Learning to Leap

Friday, 1 June 2012

Have you ever been to the playground, and seen a small child and her Daddy playing together? He pushes her on the swing, catches her at the bottom of the slide, and chases her around the play equipment. She climbs up, up, up, as high as she can go. Now she is afraid. Her Daddy is standing on the ground, and he says to her, "Jump, my sweet. I'll catch you". There is a moment of hesitation, perhaps several moments, as she weighs her fear of falling against the Daddy she knows and trusts. He repeats, "I'll catch you. You won't fall!". She looks into his face, into his patient and loving eyes, and stretches her arms forwards, slowly, hesitantly. He reaches up for her, and then suddenly she leaps off the platform, into his arms, and squeals with exhilaration. He caught her! "Again, again!" she cries, and runs off to climb up again.

Learning to leap is not an easy thing. It requires us to know the one asking us to leap, and faith in their ability to catch us. The fear of falling, of being dropped and crashing to the ground, can only be outweighed by the trust we have for the one waiting for us to leap. We can only trust someone fully when we know them. 

As a young child, I was very fearful. One day, my sisters decided to climb up onto the water tank and jump onto the trampoline, which they had positioned carefully underneath. I followed them, of course. But I was terrified. What if I fell down? What if I missed the trampoline all together? What if the trampoline ripped? I felt sick to the stomach. But I didn't have much choice. I was up on top of the tank already. My sisters had helped me up by pulling me from above, while I scrambled up the side. There was only one way down. I didn't dare to yell for Mum to come and help me...I knew we would all get into trouble for being up there in the first place. Each sister took their turn, until I was the only one left sitting there. From the ground, they called out to me, encouraging me to jump. I was afraid, but I took the leap. Afraid of missing the trampoline, I jumped as far as I could. I flew through the air, and landed on the safety of the trampoline. However, I had jumped so hard (and the trampoline was quite bouncy) that I just bounced right off and landed on the ground with a thud. Ouch! I certainly didn't want to do that again!

Yet, here I am, many years later, standing once again on the edge, needing to leap, but being oh so afraid. This time, however, I am not looking down at a trampoline, wondering if it will hold. I am looking down at my Daddy, my Heavenly Father, as He asks me to put my trust in Him and leap. I cannot see what I am leaping into. I cannot know if there is a trampoline underneath me. But I do know my Heavenly Father. I know He will catch me. I know He would never let me fall. I just need to trust Him, to put my faith in His ability, and willingness, to catch me. You might think that sounds too simple. It is simple, yet it is enormously difficult to do. I like knowing what's waiting for me. I like being able to see the trampoline. I like to be able to plan and decide for myself.

We are making a leap, as a family. We are hoping to go to Africa next year. It's a big leap. There are many things we don't know. We have been looking at one country, but we don't know if that will work out. We don't know where to get started. We don't know how to finance it. All we know, is that our Heavenly Father is standing there, asking us to take the leap, and promising to catch us. It's scary. It's not easy. It's terrifying. But it draws me to know the One calling to me, to know Him so that I can trust Him, even when I can't see what's waiting for me.

Have you ever had to make a leap?

Hugs, Fiona

7 comments :

  1. Wow Fiona, that is huge. I will pray for wisdom and guidance during this potentially life-changing time.
    Ronnie xo

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  2. Touching entry! I know it's not easy for you and I pray for courage as you take the leap. Love you heaps!

    Marianne xoxo

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  3. Thank you so much for your support and prayers! It's heartwarming.

    Love Fiona xoxo

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  4. Great post Fiona! I really like what you shared. It inspired me. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.
    I just said a prayer for you and your family.

    God bless,
    Sarah

    PS: I was touched by this study this morning. I love Wendy. She's doing a study of Psalms. We are in Psalm 23. I enjoyed what she shared. Here's the link if you'll like to check her out.. http://wendypope.org/

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  5. Thank you, Sarah, and thanks for the link!

    God bless xoxo

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  6. I'll be praying for you all too. I know exactly how you feel, although not the Africa part. :) I love you very much Pookles!

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