two and a half years ago, we decided to move to africa. we weren't sure of all the details, but when friends asked us if we'd consider moving to east africa with them to work with a community development project, we said yes. last november we went to rwanda to visit a start-up project, with our friends, to see if we could see ourselves there. again, we said yes. we sat down together, as two couples, to try and put a time frame together as to when we would arrive and get started. our friends suggested august. once again, we said yes.
august is rapidly coming to an end, and i can safely say that we haven't moved yet. in fact, we are nowhere close to moving. as of our last conversation, it will something amazing if we touch african soil before the end of 2013.
and that is really, really hard.
because waiting is never easy. because sometimes it seems like all the necessary details will never fall into place so we can leave. most of all, because it's hard to live in the interim.
we still live in denmark. we need to relate to the life we have here, and focus on our community around us. at the same time, we have to keep planning and preparing for a move, with a very slippery travel date. one day, i'm sending alexander off to his first day of school. the next day, i'm researching the overwhelming world of homeschool curriculum, and i'm starting to wonder if i need to order kindergarten or 1st grade material. my head hurts from trying to figure out stuff that i just can't find answers to, and my heart hurts from the feeling that it's not working out like i thought it would.
the leaves are starting to change colour, the apples are getting bigger on the trees, and the morning air is distinctly chilly. autumn is right on the horizon, and i'm thankful that i haven't already passed on the kids' winter clothes and snow suits. once again, i need to get hold of weather appropriate clothing and shoes that have no relevance in tropical rwanda, with no idea of how long we'll need them for. and i just don't feel like doing it.
and so, i can do nothing but wait and pray. pray for wisdom, for patience, and for the ability to rejoice
in my circumstances and be grateful for what we do have, instead of what we don't.
one day at a time.